As always, shoulda known.... my back has cost me more than anticipated and in order to not have outstanding bills, I no longer have an outstanding vacation.... but I do have a passport... so maybe someday... It's been a roller coaster day for me. Not sure how I feel about so many things.... Things I should be happy about and I'm not and things I should be indifferent about and I'm not.... and knowing deep down that I would never be able to pull off this vacation.... what was I thinking? I have 4 kids to feed by myself, I had to be a $1500 dollar deductible on my health insurance, which I've done, so thank you back.... you screwed up my vacation and I don't even feel better....
I guess I get to attatched to these pipe dreams that I deny my reality.... and my reality is right here, right now, this is it..... my dead end job, my 4 moochy kids whoo seem to have a hard time doing their share anymore, if they ever did..... my stupid health....
It was a beautiful place in my mind.... someday....
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